...and wonders of web dev

ive got pinkeye. no idea what happened, but maybe i should stop poking at my face.

while my eye grossly waters and itches, i been thinkin'. i like my website, but it sucks HEAR ME OUT HEAR ME OUT HE

it's hard. i've been browsing a lot of neocities, and people have this... cohesive look. some websites, you can tell what a person's about immediately. oh, this person likes sweets, this person does pixel art, this person likes lace and hello kitty. when you open my wbesite, there's just my sona and nothing else but Green. there's not even really an accent color, im not too proud of my palette. so, with the help of a ux/ui bestie, i told her to rip me apart and give me ideas. she did not rip me apart because she loves me but she did help a fuckton with ideas. so, expect spring cleaning soon. summer cleaning? a remodeling. Something Is Coming

its the beginning of my design adventures. i have always been bad at design. not trying to diss myself, i just do not have an eye for it. im very bad with colors, shapes and layouts are confusing, dont ever ask me about fonts or logos for gods sake. so ive been doing a lot of one-eyed research, cobbling together ideas and moodboards and surfing the neocities net to get what i need churning in my brain.

but something i DO like doing is coding. take the design part out of it, and i love putting things together to make them work. i've been going through a course on web dev shit, and kind of breezing through basic HTML and CSS, which means im plundering into the mathematical nightmare of JS, and [shudders] learning how to Make Things Responsive.

i want to learn. i want to get a lot better at building sites, i honestly would love to do it as a job... but learning how to do this is hard. really really hard, not even counting the financial hell i am currently in. im like a little newspaper boy, screaming EXTRA EXTRA READ ALL ABOUT IT and 'it' is my very sad little commissions page. now i just wait for someone- anyone- to bite. until then, i feel like i cant afford to be doing my silly little coding fun, because i should be working, i should be drawing or animating or something. trying to break out of the 'running out of time' mentality, but when your bank account is hovering at 1 dollar and you have payments scheduled... 'running out of time' becomes a lot more real.

that aside, i have a good support system. im a little stressed, but i'll get through it. i want to learn, i wanna push through the brain ouch and become really good at site-make. but, to get better at that, i have to start at step one: design. not just making a thing pretty, but just. the All of it all. the layout and shapes and colors and accessibility and so many other things in a big html blender. i have been so busy since eidkik ended. i have been so busy since eidkik started actually.

look out. something new n' tasty's coming. i don't know when, but keep your eyes peeled.

also, happy birthday to my dear husband olani!